0931 sunday

back in posting, alot of things happened and i can't be bothered to tok about it whahaa....

listening to songs trying to vomit out 300 words for my western history....

not that hard but hard to organise my chains of thots

arguing about the gender and architecture with the closet

i think its realli a veri simplistic way of analysing gender, no doubt there is a link to gender and architecture as it is an small example of how gender affects the spaces we live in and of cos about homosexuality. The essay helped so little, have to read tonnes of books else to find ideas on wat to write.

i love theory, bcos it opens our mind and see how the world evolved, Urbach say homosexuality have to hide their identity in the closet but now who the hell does now? they will usualli tries to work in a fashion or salon and shake butt,make up, file nails all day long and club hot at nite.

but i hate writing. lolx

i suddenly realised i have a too arrogant work attitude since i am in Uni, as i was doing some self-reflection and it explains why i am getting such lousy grades compare to ploy.

no hardwork no gain.

last of all gay dun hide them self animore!!! u just need to listen!!!

pull up the socks!!!

after all the sch work i am in holidays!!!

back to where i am

back to where i used to work

everything seems familiar

but not my life

i realised i had missed and lost alot of things,

its too much that i am not able to retrieve in an instant,

its my bad that i had neglected you al

i still cherish n love u al de

everybody had their own life now

a life and a schedule without me

i have been put aside

in one corner of the room ( tats my retribution)

well my boss used to say if u get one thing u lost the other

i think tat thats veri true

i had that problem b4 and i refuse to believe

in the end i still onli get one of them.

i wonder how can i best divide myself among frens, family, work and work.

i guess i realli neeed to pull up my sock on tat.

i had a dream

i had a dream

a beautiful dream

i dreamt that i was wif him who i do not know who

i dreamt tat we were in a foreign land which i do not know where

we were walking jus walking n we were happy

we came to a city where i have never seen b4

n we were happily touring around, where all the people seems to know us

then i started running away wif my bare foot

i was happy, nv had i felt so happy in my dream,

he run after me n grasp me in his arm, him who i do not know who

i had a pack of cigarette in my hand n i hand him one, how i wish i that i could smoke wif him but i couldn't make myself to.

we were running thru the dark back lane of the town but as if we were in heaven.

as we were running i saw some of the familiar people who i know

we greeted each other, and me and him found a place to sit down

it was at a high end of a wall

i rest my pack of cigarette on the edge of the wall

out of curiosity, i looked down, i saw clouds below n faintly sparkling light below me, i was fascinated

never had i seen such beautiful scenery in my whole life.

what more could i look for

Finally, we kissed but i was thinking abt smbody...him who always being my one n only

happi note

on a happier note,

i love my frens,

i love my darling,

i love Ms Seh( my eng tutor is one of the veri passionate n helpful tutor)

i love my family

i love jojo

i love myself still

muacks


ok i present you wif te joke of the day!!!!!

y can't mummies keep frens?
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cos they are too wrapped up wif themselves!!! lolx

exam later!!

hey was busy so nv update. i was busy, but today i had the mood to blog

Finally, it is gonna start.

i was looking at everyone's blog.

and i realised i had lost so much.

i used to think that i own the world. nt now

everything used to revolved ard me n for me. nt now

i used to think that very thing will be alrite. nt now

i used to think frens is the most impt bits. i still do but i have none..

i used to think i am nothing but aleast something. not now..

everything was lost when i entered NUS, what a place, cool yet cold, you think its a paradise?

its wrost then hell!!! it filled with hopeful yet selfish people that they do not even know how ugly n evil they look.

i used to think that i know there is always an evil side of man, but i dunno there can be so many!!!!!

All in NUS, they say you have to learnt to be dependent, cos you cannot depend on anyone.

everyone is just digging the shit out of you, when you are no longer in need you beta stay out of the way. cos there are few gd ones ard, most are the same.

i think breaks are good it keeps you away from the evil...so i can go back to my own shell

i used to be a hopeful and passionate , have i changed? y am i here??

i realised it is how is people disappointed by their own dream... thou i am not giving up yet

i am stilling thinking wats wrong wif me??

u think that i am pessimistic, will come n try out my suxing life n u will know y...

thots of the day

wohoo!!!! today is somebody's 1yr hahhaa i know u r reading, i m happi u pull thru or maybe u r still tryin but gal i will support u de althou i always no time but u know i am always on ur side de jia you!!! boo to all jian nan ren!!!


oh ya alot happen tis week!!
first i nv see peter on mon heehee cos i got nothing n i dun wanna get shot by him woohoo!! then he told everyone he was worried abt me cos he tinks he was too harsh on me...
haha so funni hai now then regret, another jian nan ren buay tahan
haizz... i think i am just no gd anymore sometimes i realli dunno wat i am thinking n
keep thinking of wat to do
by the time i brave up to do, is too late then cannot complete
i think everything to be complete n whole package n its details also
dunno lay maybe i am just not gd enough lolx....
but hu is ????
but it seems to me tat the key to A is crapping lolx.......
DISGUSTING NUS y dun u die!!!

today urban lecture is abt paris woow... love it
yester was tis german guy named alexander came for guest wohhooo!! whahaha(blush) he is gd la makes me wanna learn italian. llolx


a thot today,
i think that the same gp of ppl shld mix together cos they fit into each other sooo o well whahhaha... i hate ppl hu r fake n proud as if they own the world crazy. if u r rich just means tat ur wallet is heavier so much tat u to take a cab instead of bus. n the money is not even urs is ur parent's.

i believe in karma
i believe in fate
i believe in will
i believe in myself

see i dunno wat am i talking i just need to venge. keke eye shield 21 rockz!!!!

word of the day

hy·poth·e·sis
1.
a proposition, or set of propositions, set forth as an explanation for the occurrence of some specified group of phenomena, either asserted merely as a provisional conjecture to guide investigation (working hypothesis) or accepted as highly probable in the light of established facts.
2.
a proposition assumed as a premise in an argument.
3.
the antecedent of a conditional proposition.
4.
a mere assumption or guess.

hort park

Its monday so sian doin programming may not wanna see peter later lolx...

anyway fun stuff happened duing the last weeky end lolx.. on fri huifang got free invites to her compani's event got free smoke n drink keekee.... first time i smoked okay la not like addicted, i tot will be veri shiok but okay la it jus the moment went the smoke gets into ur brain the u feel abit high other then tat is nothing.

However, the place where the event was held was great!!! its called the Hort park, apparently its a still a newly built place, it is on mid-hill balini style, love the exterior next to the threshold where there are a shallow infinity pool it is where we sit by the side of it. there is a timber trellis roof over you but not blocking the sky of dazzling starts above... with it dim lighting and a hint of jazz, the place is a divine!!! it is even better when i am wif my gd frens huifang and lisin n of cos darlin mr goh mao zhu!!! should go back there smtimes. cheers!!!!!!

other then tat weekend was just little brainstorming of my project n alot of slacking, spent my sat wif darlin, misses him so much.. keke eee so erxin ... lolx =P but i like it lolx.. =P dun like dun read lo =P...
showing attitude today cos i got anithing else to show!!!!!! woah~~~!!!!!!! sobbb.. i am gonna die!!!!!

P.S: wah jus heard tat brad pit n angelia jolie is expecting a twin!!!! waoliao wat r they? baby machine? lolx aiya but they r handsome n beautiful n RICH!!! should contribute more i guess lolx...

Word of the day

di·vine
Having the nature of or being a deity.
Of, relating to, emanating from, or being the expression of a deity: sought divine guidance through meditation.
Being in the service or worship of a deity; sacred.
Supremely good or beautiful; magnificent: a divine performance of the concerto.
Extremely pleasant; delightful: had a divine time at the ball.

after sch

yeah jus finish my eng test okay i think hope it will not go out of point. now finally i can slip a time to got out with mr goh le wao nv see him for a wk plus le. later we goin movie yeah dunno watch wat show lay than shoppin therapy i think so long nv go shop lay hahaa... today relac tml then chiong design!!!!! or sun whahaha............. lazy la so sian

yester crit actually dun wanna go de. as i had already perdicted wat will they say
hai... dunno la aleast i know wat to do but hope is nt wrong yeah! okay jia you!!!



word of the day
hys·te·ri·a
1.
an uncontrollable outburst of emotion or fear, often characterized by irrationality, laughter, weeping, etc.
2.
Psychoanalysis. a psychoneurotic disorder characterized by violent emotional outbreaks, disturbances of sensory and motor functions, and various abnormal effects due to autosuggestion.

after studio

yoop jus finished consulting peter, i think it is one of the smoother session but i think maybe its bcos he in hurry, but who cares... aleast i got things to work on i must look at the thresholds, transformation space, circulation is the most impt is in the spacial content of the passage itself , in general there have to be a relation between the passive n active space itself. yeah! u understand wat i am sayin? lolx okay

updates on today everyone is working on urban i also must dash into it le nv do anithing yet dunno hw much time i need for it lay.

sob sob no time for him, no time for frens, onli time for sch....... wat a life of nus students...
i wanna go thailand!! so happi my frens share the same thot wif me!!! i realli wanna shop shop n shop !!! altho i got buy stuff online also heehee.... jus bought another 2 shirts shld be in tml yeah!! hope will be nice!!! yeah!!!

okay okay do work lo jia you jia you gambatae!!!!

modelling

nothing beta to do lolx i had a thot

some times i think tat the relationships btw guys n gals r so weird.. smtimes u would prefer to tell and share more wif the opposite sex more then u tell ur own sexes. y?

i think a relationship btw frens is the longer it is, the closer u al will be. but for BGR is the opposite... i find everyone's relationship is lay tat dunno y. i am disappointed by how it can change n rot. the longer it get, the easier to break its bond. in the past, i don believe in long terms relationship and i still dun. i just believe in one's passion n love for each other, when it burns out then tats when it will end. one will still feel sad as a possession is lost, is not a love tat is gone cos its gone long ago b4 u realised.

its gone when promises were nt made, when attitude changed, when u start to think of smthing else n suspect, when there is lesser n lesser conversation, when respect is gone, when a joke no longer bring laugher, when an embrace no longer means a need for each other ................

on a brighter side, we should celebrate for a new birth of chance n freedom. woot =)


p.s : is just a thot, nothing happened to me lolx

ling hao is my crit panel!!!!!!!!

OMG!!!! wat can be worse!!?? omg!!! WTF!!!! LING HAO is one of my crit panel!!!!! wat the F*** la y r they doing tis to me!!!! sob sob i realli realli wanna cry le la sob sob....

woah~~~~~~ sob sob why y lay tat sob feeling super down n tired so many things to do just now kanna shoot by peter, now they tell me ling hao is one of my crit panel wao liew actualli wanna heck de now panic like shit sia how sia how sia

He keep saying it have to be more experiential and spatial and study the characteristic of water cos i am too into the study of forms. please la there is hundred qualities of it lor n i think he got smthing he wans in his mind le but he keep saying all the general comment to me WTH la. dying le lor i dunno wat he wans n i realli dun wanna be smudge by ling hao sob sob... he will nv tell me hw lo but he will tell others.......i dunno how~~~~
what shld i do? should i do my parti model wif water? how can i manipulate water???

i am goin crazy crazy crazy...................................................

should i email him? i think i should think of various way to do my model to experiment how how how....... with a main principle ?

i must nt forget wat he said.... but i am so scare abt my interim... am i goin to fail for tis sem...
sob if tats the case i shall go back to work le so bored wif sch nwadays.........i hate NUS.!!!!

Why is all the shits happened to me!!!!???? sob sob.......

sunday nite

woot just came back from photo shot cos my sis in law signed up for a package so we can all go together.. wao nv knew photoshot was so tiring change clothes, makeup, hair-do, pose and smile wao can die... dun realli like doin all tat...hm.... maybe is my first try tats y feel abit weird lolx... hope the photos will turn out okay..*cross fingers* but baby jerald was realli cute he is veri corperative and nv cry untill the last past lolx love my cutie nephews...*muacks

waoliew its sun nite le but still i haven get started on my project got alot of things to be done like english presentation, urban assignment, archi con etc.......hai~~~~ wat is happening nv do anything yet tats y i say i cannot stay at home to do work de end up will keep slpin...... sian....
everyone must be so hardworking now haiz.... maybe i should realli move to space inorder to complete all the assignments

ok jia you ba today must finish english and design. althou i dun feel like seeing him(peter) tml but i will try to think of smthing first see how jia you ba all the archi freaks i may nt be as gd as u al but i will try to work hard de ganbatei

p.s: hope i would fall aslp after writing tis... lolx......

morning

good morning!!!! there comes a new day!!! okay i am eating my breakfast haven start on model yet
going to do soon le may god be wif me!!!!whahaha so i can complete haha

i dun care if he is goin to say if it is ugly i jus do again lo wats the big deal i do nice nicez!!! if he dun apperciate smbody else will yeah jia you jia you

wao lucky tat time when i was in ling hao studio, i still yet to have a blog if not!!! i will have 100 posts on him!! whahaha

oh and i got a little thot if everywhere is goin green, maybe we can think of switchin jobs to landscape architect or professional gardener!!! but i can't cos i will go tan veri easy but it good n easy money la lolx....


ps: miss ye kai xin is a veri nice gal.............

woot

yeah wohoo!!!! nowadays it is so easy to set up a blog!!!! yeah yumei mei also have her own blog le!!!! bcos she is sitting in her studio alone doing nothing.!!!
shit la i suppose to be veri busi de lor, should be planning and doing my design but i am so slack lolx.
dunno wat to do veri lost all bcos of tat peter la dunno y he hates me so much sob sob always say tat my models are ugly!!! - hello!!! i work veri hard on them de la!!! wth!
he wants 1:100 scale model tml lay hello!! have u even consider abt the scale of the site!!! 1:500 can barely fit into an A1 lor omg!!!! multiply by 5 means i need 4 table to put lor -_-''
hai nvm still dunno wat my design is gonna be must plan n design the programs, the experince, the activities and the size of the first then it will determine my design.
ok gtg eat with may n andrew le
wohoo we staying over in studio!!! again .........

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