sudden thot

As i mentioned earlier that i miss him but as i think deeper, even if we are still together, we will only be stagnant and not achieve anything. Many were said but nothing is done. Regrets begins to pile up instead of happy memories..........

something that i read online:

Leo girl is either completely head over heels with Gemini boy or he’s on her last nerve. Rarely is there an in-between moment when you two team up. The good news: you’ll never lack for stimulating conversation. He’ll talk about climbing Mt. Fuji, but you’ll be the one to actually book the tickets.

i think its rather true, maybe i am really tired of all the empty promises he made and all the disappointments he caused. maybe my archi life is part of the blame but i am really tired of pushing a bull in this relationship. tired of all the sweet talk and thots without action.

you say you will change for me, but what i really want is for you to have a better future not for me but for you. yet you dun see a problem, so it becames my problem..... fine i will be the bad person again......

when i think of all the above, i begin to let you go again easier bit by bit....... i love you but i believe without hard work, love cannot sustain.....maybe i am not good enough to make you wanna be better, then i hope you will find someone whom you want to be better for...
all the best for you my love...............................

my tutor

while we are rushing for urban panel submission, my design tutor give us a surprise by coming to spot check us at 10 p.m at night!!!! we are like WTH..... but i cannot deny that she is a very good n devoted tutor!! nice lady who trat us 500 dollar crab meal lolx

i miss

rushing my tonnes and mountain of submission again, suddenly i miss him. i must be strong, i must endure, but i am being to hate myself.......whatever..... i must be strong !!!!! do my work!!!! i will be better, he will be better, i believe, aleast i must believe.........

maybe i am emo, pms
Jia you yumei!!!! you can do it!!!!!

Back

It is always good to come back to and read some of the post i wrote back in the past.
Therefore, i want to write down the details of the trip in here so that it will not fade away silently.

Lots of things happened i went to US first Seattle, worked in Mount Rainier, then to Portland, Las Vegas, New York, LA, and San Francisco seen alot of stuff and experience alot of things.

I will begin with Mount Rainier, it was really a fruitful awesome awesome trip of my life, i will never forget all the fun that we had while we hike on Mount Rainier.

Places that we hike in is Comet's fall (where ying ying fell and during Matt's Bday), west side road to George Lake (with Richard Lira where we had tea and sandwiches, and brought a bansen burner!! lolx), Narada falls from Paradise(with matt and ying), High Rocks, Granite Lake(where there is suppose to be fishes that nibble your toes), St. Helens where there is the awesome awesome Ape cave and pizza after that, Reflection Lake(with ying where we tried to take alot of pictures!!! and almost lost. lolx), Alder Lake(where we got thrown in), Wonderland Trail (with Dhava and Fenella), Growth of the Pachariate(on my last day with Matt), Panorama point thru Sky line Trail (with Sara, Ruby, Ying and metmatt) and other random trails that we had after dinner.

Even working as housekeeper in Paradise inn of Mount Rainier was a hard but yet fun experience, as we made really good friends who i really missed alot.